Since I left my full-time communications job in July, I have been on a self-discovery transformative journey. For too many years, my creativity has been blocked inside causing strong back and stomach pains. I was also always complaining and jealous of others who were working on cool and innovative projects. I finally had it with jobs that didn’t fulfill me and put me in a box of following the straight line. I was ready to be a rebel and not follow that straight line but a curvy one. I started to research groups that could help me uncover my creativity in some way. I wanted to be with like-minded people who enjoyed expressing themselves, being vulnerable and open to self-discovery through travel, wellness, arts, self-care or therapeutic exercises. I thought that it would be impossible to find those people, especially in DC, but I was wrong when I found the group “The District’s Wonder & Creative Lab”. I read the description of the group:
Greetings Goldstreamers! Join our local wellness group and embark on a journey of unblocking creativity, reawakening inspiration and learning how to tap into your artistic vein. The sessions will be based on the The Artist’s Way: A ( 12 step) Spiritual Path To Higher Creativity by Julia Cameron. Must bring your own copy of the book. Open to those who are searching for creative outlets to stress, confusion and despair. Among many things, together we will learn the significance of writing “Morning Pages” in experiencing a more spontaneous and mindful day, share our processes and encourage each other on this journey towards self discovery.
The description personally hit me because it was exactly what I was looking for. I decided to venture out on my own and give the group a try. I instantaneously felt like I was at home because I was with people who were in my same boat. The group leader Katerina also has a way of bringing out your creative side, and I’ve truly connected with her due to both having the desire to help people improve their well-being. For so many years, I thought something was wrong with me for not feeling excited about work or having my whole life revolve around work. I guess the piece of the puzzle that was missing was that I wasn’t meant for a 9-5pm job but for a career of constant learning and creating.
The group works together on reading The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity by Julia Cameron. The book really makes us dig deep to bring out the artist in us. I never thought of myself as an artist since I can’t paint, sing, draw, design, dance…..you get the point. However, my personality and the things I enjoy are all signs of an artist. I enjoy dabbling in a few things: editing videos, learning new programs like Photoshop and Premiere, traveling, and blogging. Also, in the book the author says we’re all artists. We were created by God, or whatever you may believe in, and we’re creations put on this earth to create. My greatest creation is the one I’m currently embarking on owning my business of organizing wellness travel retreats.
The main exercise of the book is “Morning Pages” in which you have to write 3 pages of long-hand writing with a pen(no computer) first thing in the morning when you wake up. As soon as the alarm goes off instead of pressing the snooze button or getting up to go to the bathroom you must take out your notebook and just write anything that comes to your mind. No thinking….you’re not writing a master piece it’s just about letting your conscious dictate what to write on the pages. Wow…..this exercise has been my savior. I never thought writing could be so therapeutic. Most of my life I’ve been scared of writing because I’ve always had someone butcher my writing saying it was no good or that I couldn’t write. I lived with this shame and fear until the lightbulb went off. My writing sucked because I was forced to write about things I didn’t care about or that didn’t make sense, basically forced to write bullshit. Morning pages has taken that shame and fear of writing away. I just write and for once I’m not worried about what anyone else will say about it–most liberating thing ever. I actually enjoy writing because once I start writing those morning pages I just can’t stop. I’ve had too much fear and shame built inside me. These morning pages have opened me up and are allowing the creative, strong, and proud Adriana to emerge. She’s tired of hiding.
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